Kiara Laura

My mom and dad own 2 dogs. Cyrus (on the left) and Kiara (on the right).  Kiara is a golden retriever queen and my mother's pride and joy.  The dog she always wanted as a child but never had.

I've been spending a lot of time visiting the Queen in hopes it will make her perk up and feel better. 

 Mom took her to the vet a week and a half ago due to her peeing a lot and drinking a lot.  The vet did blood work and they found sugar in her urine.  This is obviously a hint of possible diabetes but they wanted to put her on antibiotic and recheck in a week in case it was a fluke or some sort of infection.

Since then Kiara has had her moments of high energy as well as resting and not feeling good.  She's even woke mom and dad up in the middle of the night to potty as well as had a few accidents during the day.  I've went a couple times during my last days of summer freedom to let her out and just chill with them. 

The above picture is her grinning as I was eating my Happy Meal during one  visit. She loves food. But    has not been allowed to eat table scraps or anything extra during her weekly waiting period.

 Plants from my parent's house

 Smiling. Being outside with pop.:)

 Purple shamrocks. These are my fave.

Her vet appointment has been changed from Friday to tomorrow due to her still drinking and peeing large amounts as well as her eye started watering.  They will test her blood again and then we will find out if it's diabetes or not.

Please be in prayer for sweet Kiara.  We all want her to feel better and find some answers.

Seeking for Wisdom 02

Proverbs 11:28- A life devoted to things is a dead life..a stump.

A God shaped life is a flourishing tree.

(as scribbled in my journal)

Priorities, priorities, priorities

If lady wisdom were around she'd probably be shaking her head with that tsk, tsk, tsk thing going on.  It seems like more and more there are more and more distracting things thrown into our already ADHD worlds (things, things, things).

it's a fight to see if we are really making the right priorities

What we are holding and valuing in the highest regard.

What things are demanding our attention and are they even worth gaining our attention?

Our we God pleasing? or man pleasing? 

Is living Kingdom minded a fashion fleeting away or are we the pioneers of a revolution of God seeking, God fearing, power shaking, earth changing warriors?

Is it my four and no more?

Do we recognize the God shaped life?

I want a God shaped life..one that flourishes, thrives, grows, evolves into eternal goodness. 

Shake everything that can be shaken.

Starting with our priorities.

i love with the Lord speaks through wisdom.

make time..find the time..

this has been the first summer where I haven't worked at the daycare (summer camp).  After 5 years of teaching and working each summer 30 to 40 hours, I felt like this summer I would just hang out and relax, enjoy the time I had on my hands...read, craft, create, do nothing.

I have to admit.  I found myself with too much time on my hands.  All my family and friends were at work so there was limited hang out availability.  I was able to read, to rest, to relax, to do nothing....but I became restless.  I became ready to explode with action and an outlet for something.  Then it came up that my in law's needed some help working at their furniture store.  I would only be working 2 days a week and get to work those days with my husband.  I've never sold furniture in my life and it def. forced me to step out of my teaching is life comfort zone.  But it's been good to have something to do.  It's been good to be uncomfortable.

God's been speaking to me about comfort zones. How dangerous it can be if we remain, take refuge, and refuse to move out of our comfort zones.  For comfort, familiarity, can breed complacency. I'm leaning how to see God in the uncomfortable places.  In those things that scratch and provoke me (not in a bad way).  For it's in our moments of un-comfort that God requires us to step up, rely on Him, trust solely on Him, believe that He will meet us.

I also have came to the revelation through my reflections on time this summer that:
1) Idle time is no good. No friend. It leaves for idle thoughts and an open door for the enemy to step in and start whispering lies.
2) Time management is key. I have also learned that I enjoy having a schedule and following it.
3). Letting God invade my time and wreck my "schedules" is well worth it, no matter how big of a fit I pitch.

Seeking for Wisdom 01

I needed to steal away last night into the quiet. Into the place where it's just me and God. I kept hearing 'wisdom' and knew that instead of trying to lean unto my own understanding God was sending me to the book of proverbs.  I opened up to Chapter 10 and my eyes fell  upon verse 12.

"Hatred stirreth up strife but love covers all sins"

notice it says ALL sins...not just some...not just the ones we think may weigh as more serious than others...ALL SINS

Sin is sin, and the truth is, we all sin. But love covers a multitude of sins. God's love is so wide and deep that it covers our sins.  Could you image what it would be like if God was like "oh you sinned today, I can't love you anymore...'you sinned again are you kidding me? I can't believe you lied to me, i'm done with you." Praise God he loves us in the midst of our sins. He loves us when we trip, slip, and fall smack on our faces.  He loves us when we lie to Him, when we lie to ourselves.  God is not a God of strife and division.  Being upset and stirring up anger leads to strife (vigorous or bitter conflict, discord, or antagonism) And that's not something we want being stirred up.

I don't now about anyone else but that is a beautiful revelation to embrace: love covers all sins.  

Beach Wedding

I love beach weddings. The husband and I attended one last Saturday down in Ocean Isle beach. check out how gorgeous it was:

 The bride and groom being married by my old youth pastor.

It was so simple but so serene.

Starfish lined the aisle the bride walked down. 

Perfect background

They had music but the waves could have been sufficient enough.

The hubby and I had to get a beach photograph as well.

Aren't we adorable?

WE had one day where we made a trek to the beach. Luckily for having a pass to the MB national park grounds we found a perfect spot to lay out. Hotel and multi family vacationers free. 

bliss.

The only bad part was the wind was picking up and we were being pelted by sand. 

which caused the 2 most pasty people on the beach to head in earlier. 

I can't wait to get back to the beach in August for the anniversary.

Father's Day highlights

Meet the dads. On the left side is my daddy, on the right side is David's daddy (my Father in law)

Cookout menu included:

Shrimp, steak, and chicken kabobs,

from the garden grilled zuchinni  and squash

white rice

corn on the cob (on the grill)

this amazing veggie salad that my mother in law made

can you smell the goodness?

Here's my yummy plate

it's quite normal if your mouth is drooling right now

stuffing our faces

Hawk fellas

Dad got a fire pit. He was pretty pumped about the situation

My apologies for just now getting these posted.

We had a wonderful time and I am looking forward to our July 4th cookout as well.

So cleary I took a blogging break.  Been pondering much. Feeling greatly. Searching frequently. 

and I think  I'm ready to get back into the swing of things.

So here's a picture recap of things that have been going on in the life of Mrs. J Hawk:)

1. Kaylee and I have been doing some mega bonding. I've had her since she was a puppy and granted she is 2 years old (close to 3)...but she's been pretty independent and not really the snuggler type of dog.  All it took was a little discipline with the squirt bottle and her getting on the treadmill with me to run, and now we are thicker than thieves. 

 2. This is the hubby and I on Easter Sunday

 oh you know just hanging out with the flowers

 3. Salem and Josiah are still their typical terrier selves.  Salem just recently licked a frog last week and got really sick.  The things I had read about dogs licking and even eating frogs are not good.  Luckily all she did was constantly lick her mouth every three seconds and then threw up about 3 hours after she licked the frog. I stayed up with her that whole night and got little to no sleep. I am glad to say that she bounced back and was acting normal the next day.  

 4. Here is my lovely mother on Mother's Day.  David and I ended up heading over to my parents house first , then my grandmothers for a cookout, and lastly to his parent's house to celebrate with his momma.  All mother's had a fabulous day. 

 I made mom a cake plate and she loved it!:)

 5. Mom and Dad's big summer project this year is their garden.  This was how it looked back in May. You should see it now. It's completely full of home grown goodness. 

 6. David got to hold a baby at the Mother's Day cookout.  We've been asked a lot about when we are going to start our own lil "Hawk's Nest". In due time we say...in due time.  Needless to say the grandmothers are more than ready for grandbabies to spoil. 

 7. David and I got to be a part of his cousin's (who is one of my good friends as well) wedding at the end of May.  Here we are dolled up to head to the rehearsal and dinner. Of course we had to include the fur babies in the photo shoot. 

8. Love remains. Even when everything else around us may be falling apart, we are still constant...we still go on.

9. I have 2 more days of school with my students and have recently started my classroom blog which is here: http://mrshawksnest.blogspot.com/

you should go and follow and support my teacherish posts as well

After my last 2 days with the students I have a few teacher work days to put in...and then summer break is MINE!!!

10. I have started buckling down on my weight and fitness which I will be posting about separately very soon. 

Hope you're ready for more of me, because I'm planning on sticking around.

Happy Spring Break

Spring Break is finally here.  Yesterday was half day workshop then back to school to get some planning/work done.  I am grateful to have some time off to relax and just rest.  However, i have been battling some stomach pain/issues for about 2 weeks now.  The pain is on my right side and will come and go. At times it can make me feel very much sick. YUCK.  I went to the doctor last Wednesdays ago and answered a lot of questions, did a lot of describing only to have to do stool samples and start taking an anit spasim medication for the bloating/gas/pain in stomach.  Despite the meds I still have been experiencing pain (it's been a week since the appointment).  My stool samples came back all normal so now I think the next step is getting an ultra sound done.  This is a huge interference with me enjoying my spring break and I am praying God's healing just rocks my stomach back to normal status.

I am planning to finish organizing/spring cleaning.  Today I was able to clean the house and I organized the master bathroom cabinets under the sink as well as my nightstand.  There are still some rooms/spaces that loom over my head but they will have to wait. 

I am super excited because Mega Thrift is having a 50% off the entire store sale tomorrow and I will totally be there when the doors open.  :)

PS: did I mention that it flurried yesterday here in Winston Salem, North Carolina. Yes it's true. and it's been cold.  Now that is not springish at all.

oh strep throat

You mean and terrible thing.

I do not care for you stopping by and taking residency in my throat.

These little white spots make me feel so yucky.

I loathe you strep throat.

I really really do.

Sent

 

:lately (for months actually) I have been struggling with church, what the church has become, and what’s going on within churches that it has gripped me in a way I’ve never experience before. A way I have wrestled with and tried to understand.  It’s taken me awhile but I’m finally at a uncomfortable place where I can recognize it and deal with it.  

Bottom line is this: I am not satisfied and I know it’s time for the church to AWAKE.  Not just my local church home but I’m referring to the BODY as a whole….it’s many members…it’s entire entity.  I am not satisfied with settling and doing/living the bare minimum.  I do not attend church to watch musicians give concerts, I attend church expecting the spirit of the Lord to be ushered in.  I go to worship, to press in, to let God’s spirit have it’s way so that His will can be fulfilled. Not man’s agenda or good ideas.  I do not like routine services where everything is expected.  I do not like when we compromise the Holy Spirit.  I also am not satisfied with the lack of preaching and taking the good news out into the streets. 

How reassuring to know that I am not alone in my un-satisfaction and that there are other people out there with the same irritations and frustrations.  And while I went through the various stages of not knowing what to do about all this, of wanting to change but not channeling my efforts in the right directions, God has slowly began speaking to me and my attitude has changed.  I am no longer frustrated to the point where I just sit back and watch it happen, my fight instinct has started to arise and bubble within me.  And now that it’s here I should have known it would have been coupled with the fight/the opposition.

For you see for the first time in a long time, I was ready to go to church. Not to see if things would be different, not to see friends and family or check out the musicians, but because something in my spirit had changed. An urgency was there.  I was excited again.  This morning everything went wacky (woke up later than the alarm was intended for, our 2 year old lab peed in her crate and in the floor and she never has accidents, the enemy had me feeling my husband was against me, my bath water was cold, and I didn’t have time to get ready due to all these set backs and delays) and left me feeling smothered by lowly feelings that I had no motivation to fight back from this attack.  I gave up.

I was really feeling down on myself for allowing the enemy to get one over on me that I just  began to weep and cry.  Praise God for speaking through my husband who encouraged me.  He basically conveyed “yeah okay Jennie so you messed up, you gave up and didn’t fight, but God’s still here in this room this very second. You might not have made it to church but you can still fight here.” I was so encouraged and that sense of being a failure evaporated. 

So I picked up a bible study at Lifeway last week called SENT: Living the Missional Nature of the Church by Ed Stetzer.  So this morning I started to read the introduction and it was confirmed that this study did not leap out of the shelves for no reason. 

Here are a few snippets from the introduction that really stuck out to me:

“Missional is an important word because it doesn’t describe what we do as Christ-followers; it describes who we are as Christ-followers”

“By definition the church is a body of believers sent into the world. But many churches, particularly in the United States, seem to have developed a more stationary identidy, requiring the world to come to them to receive the healing, redemption, and salvation promised through Christ”

He went on to explain it’s like we’ve planted our feet within our comfortable church walls and said ‘come to us” instead of us going out and MOVING OUR FEET and saying to the world hey “we’re coming”

“The Holy Spirit is awakening the idea in us that any church that does not affect real change in it’s community, country, and the world is severely neglecting it’s true purpose”

So if you share in my feelings, or have ever felt like this before I truly believe things are getting ready to change.  And you, the general reader can be a part of the change..the movement. So don’t feel bad in your dis-satisfaction. You shouldn’t. Because there’s more. We weren’t called to settle.

 

So Get Going…..

I miss my hair..

here.

I really enjoyed this cut and color

I need to make a decision what I want to do next

black and white affair

The Royal - Habachy Designs - Interior Design
Originally uploaded by Habachy Designs

this is beyond fabulous. I want these chairs. and even the black brick wall isn't all that shabby:)

Things I'd like to do..

I love this gray chair and the whole decor of the room.  Gray is in a lot of our color schemes for the house remodel project.  Oh the house remodeling project. As a new year is in place I am constantly finding myself wanting to make changes, wanting to stick to my goals.  With that comes just small, fun, and simple things I want to do. Such as:

1) Continue reading lots of books. I haven't set a number yet. I think I will go with 100. I want that to be a mixture of novels as well as Christian growth/tool books. With the internet and Kindles and all the other technological innovations it's taken the excitement out of simply sitting down on the couch with a blanket and reading a book (being able to dog ear the pages, doodle in the margins, let the dogs drool on it).

2). Stay faithful in my journey to reading the Bible in a year. Today marks day 27 since the first of the year and I have had 27 days in a row of being disciplined to get in the word. It's been a beautiful thing thus far.

3) Find the motivation from above to apply to getting on the treadmill and utilizing my equipment as well as walking the dogs. Time management. Must make time.

4) Journal. I'm feel this comes up a lot and I know it's because i havne't been doing it but it's a part of me.  It's something I've always done. I just need to remember how again.

Happy Thursday all.

Meet Salem

After volunteering at the Animal Shelter I met this precious, submissive, uniquely colored dog named "Pookie" at the time.  I worked with one of the shelter workers on socializing her and doing some training with her.  I felt drawn to her and something in my gut said "I will rescue this girl".

So needless to say after talking my husband into adding a 3rd dog to the pack, and making preparations (filling out adoption papers, paying fees, picking her up from the vet, going through gradual pack introductions due to spay surgery), she is making her transition nicely into 6940. 

I introduce to you: Salem Hawk

Unwelcomed snow days

Today marks day 3 of no school. Another day lost for testing. Another day to make up. Another day of stir craziness. I love snow don't get me wrong. But when it starts robbing our school calendar of school days I become a little agitated. Sadly I cannot say I have been overly productive during my time off. I actually at times haven't known what to do with myself. The following list is how I have been spending my snow days:
1) Going to bed later than usual (school nights I am a grandma: bed between 9:30/10- snow days bed: 12:30 M). and getting to sleep in til 8 (beats 5:50 am)
2) Watching the X Men trilogy with my husband. EAch night we watched one. I am ready for 4. Will there be 4?
3) Working on a hair bow holder. Pink/White and Zebra print as well as listing a few things in the shop
4) Gradual socialization with Salem to the crew (yes we got a new dog) will blog more about her later
5) drinking coffee in large quantities
6) playing with the pups in the snow
7) napping
8) reading
9) I did do some teacher related things today such as grade a gazillion papers and look at how butchered my lesson plans are for this week.
10). Started a new devotional with my husband.

Praying that we get back to school tomorrow. Scrapers: get busy. Sun: melt away the snow/ice.