embracing provision

Last Monday I started to experience some discomfort with my bottom teeth. I knew immediately it had to be wisdom teeth related (which have been embedded in my gums for quite some time now)I got a dentist appointment made for that afternoon for X rays.

Come to find out my bottom 2 wisdom teeth are growing in sideways straight into the roots/bones of my other teeth which has caused an infection which is why I was starting to have some pain there. The dentist wrote me out an antibiotic and referred me to an oral surgeon.

Tuesday I went to my consultative appointment to find out that all 4 teeth would be cut out but that the bottom 2 would be more difficult (and cost more money). One is very close to a nerve and the surgeon was a little concerned as to why I had waited so long to have them out. He proceeded to explain that there was a 1-2% chance for one tooth that i could temporarily loose feeling in my cheek and lip and the other has a 5-7% chance. Granted that's still a low percentage it didn't make me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.

So I have been battling my fears of being put under for surgery and just fears in general as I do not like the dentist, drilling, etc let alone cutting my teeth out and leaving holes.

The date of my surgery will be April 1st at 9:30 am. I have to pay upfront 950.00. Luckily I do have the funds to cover the surgery but it will have to be pulled from wedding savings. Even still that's okay as well because I am getting a good sized tax return back. It was as if God knew the timing for the whole situation and had already put the provisions in place.

But I must be honest that it took me awhile to be thankful and not pout/whine/and complain. It was real easy for me to be upset that my plans were interuppted (for example: spending my spring break recovering instead of all the other plans I had, having to borrow money from the wedding fund). But God really started getting in my business and reminded me that I should be celebrating and praising Him for lining everything up so that it would be taken care of.

I could have not even had the money to cover the surgery. I could have had to taken off days from work and miss pay. I had to see things from His perspective and not my own. Sure it didn't look exactly how I thought it would look, and sure I'm nervous and scared all at the same time. But my God is a mighty God. He has already made a way and provided. He will keep a careful watch over me during my surgery and He will heal my body in a quick recovery. I just have to start believing Him at His word.

So I say all this to say...embrace the provisions God puts in your life. Be thankful that God makes a way and is faithful...even if it's not what you had in mind.