It sickens me to see the state that some engaged couples are in. I guess being a witness to their "crazy" makes me thank God with much praise that I am fully trusting in Him with my future and ALL the details. I've never met someone so insecure with themselves that they prep talk their fiance to keep their "eyes on them" before they go out in public, and then throw tantrums if the boy glances at another girl. I guess what's the saddest about this situation is the "boy" used to be one of my really good friends. After spilling my cup over at a cookout this past weekend and not even saying sorry or looking at me, I realized just how severe the situation has become. ANd my heart really does hurt for this friend of mine because he deserves soooooooooooooooooooooooooo much better. I pray God awakens his senses to reality and allows room for HIS voice in the midst of the relationship. Most importantly Lord let it be YOUR will.
I'm pretty sure love is all about trust, and trust is about love. So if you don't trust the one you love and aren't looking to GOD for direction with the relationship, what will be the sustainer as the pages are turned??
After my last blog my eyes fells about a devotional from Oswald chambers which fit perfectly for some of the things I was experiencing (and still am)
"Though it tarries..wait for it (Habakkuk 2:3) We cannot bring the vision to fufillment through our own efforts, but must live under it's inspiration until it fufills itself....Waiting for a vision that "tarries" is the true test of our faithfullness to God.
"Let God send you out through His storm, and don't go until He does. If you select your own spot to be planted, you will prove yourself to be unproductive, empty pod. HOwever if you allow God to plant you, you will "bear much fruit" (john 15:8)
and still..I choose..to wait. for what other choice will bring fufillment. nothing on my own. nothing in my own strength.
Plant me Lord where best YOU see fit.