Sunday, March 29, 2009

embracing provision

Last Monday I started to experience some discomfort with my bottom teeth. I knew immediately it had to be wisdom teeth related (which have been embedded in my gums for quite some time now)I got a dentist appointment made for that afternoon for X rays.

Come to find out my bottom 2 wisdom teeth are growing in sideways straight into the roots/bones of my other teeth which has caused an infection which is why I was starting to have some pain there. The dentist wrote me out an antibiotic and referred me to an oral surgeon.

Tuesday I went to my consultative appointment to find out that all 4 teeth would be cut out but that the bottom 2 would be more difficult (and cost more money). One is very close to a nerve and the surgeon was a little concerned as to why I had waited so long to have them out. He proceeded to explain that there was a 1-2% chance for one tooth that i could temporarily loose feeling in my cheek and lip and the other has a 5-7% chance. Granted that's still a low percentage it didn't make me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.

So I have been battling my fears of being put under for surgery and just fears in general as I do not like the dentist, drilling, etc let alone cutting my teeth out and leaving holes.

The date of my surgery will be April 1st at 9:30 am. I have to pay upfront 950.00. Luckily I do have the funds to cover the surgery but it will have to be pulled from wedding savings. Even still that's okay as well because I am getting a good sized tax return back. It was as if God knew the timing for the whole situation and had already put the provisions in place.

But I must be honest that it took me awhile to be thankful and not pout/whine/and complain. It was real easy for me to be upset that my plans were interuppted (for example: spending my spring break recovering instead of all the other plans I had, having to borrow money from the wedding fund). But God really started getting in my business and reminded me that I should be celebrating and praising Him for lining everything up so that it would be taken care of.

I could have not even had the money to cover the surgery. I could have had to taken off days from work and miss pay. I had to see things from His perspective and not my own. Sure it didn't look exactly how I thought it would look, and sure I'm nervous and scared all at the same time. But my God is a mighty God. He has already made a way and provided. He will keep a careful watch over me during my surgery and He will heal my body in a quick recovery. I just have to start believing Him at His word.

So I say all this to say...embrace the provisions God puts in your life. Be thankful that God makes a way and is faithful...even if it's not what you had in mind.

Monday, March 23, 2009

You are all I want..You are all I need

Where to begin? Other than to say God is amazing to the zillioneth degree. Last weekend Breaking Point and some other awesome folks packed up the 15 passenger van and headed to Myrtle beach South Carolina for a ministry opp. Friday-Sunday was everything I needed and although I did not go to be minstered to but rather to minister...God is such a sweet lover because in the midst of me stepping out and ministering, He wrapped me up in His arms and blew peace and rest into my nostrils. David and I were prayed over as a couple that weekend which was really awesome. It was kind of one of those reality checks making everything we are about to step into more real. We were connected spiritually on a deeper level this weekend and it has def brought us closer.

Bible study was also amazing last Thursday. God truely set up divine appointments and at one point came in and interuppted the flow and schedule of the night. He knew what we each needed that night and I am greatful for the touches He sent down. His presence was pretty thick up in the living room here at 6940. He is always avaliable to us.

Since coming back I have been lit with the fire of God. It's been stirring through my veins and everything has been exciting..fresh...I couldn't stop thinking about going on another minstry trip. But then God revealed to me that I have opportunities on a daily basis to minister to others and it shouldn't take a "trip" to get me all fired up. But it did and that's okay. Because sometimes we need to have God fan the flame and stir the pot of passion.

Wedding plans are continuing to progress along. It's hard to believe how fast time is moving. It's almost April. 159 more days to go~!

I started having pain today in my mouth(the whole bottom rows) I had this feeling it was something related to my wisdom teeth. So I ended up going in to the dentist for X rays and found out my wisdom teeth are growing in sideways into the bone/root of my other teeth which is causing an infection which is where the pain is coming from. So tomorrow I have my consultation with the oral surgeon to find out when I have these bad boys CUT out. EEEK, NOt at all excited and very nervous but I'm trusting God for this one.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

wedding website

it's obviously a work in progress but check it out thus far and sign the guestbook!

Saturday, March 7, 2009

Monday, March 2, 2009

super crappy snow day.

woke up at 5:30 am to the alarm battery beeping and Kaylee barking
tried to turn on the light. Did not work
No power. No heat
It was freezing.
Luckily David came and helped me pack up the dogs, some of my junk, and some of my foods to take to my parents house. I spent the majority of the day there as my power did not come back on until around 7pm this evening.
I also dealt with dizzy spells today on three different occassions.

School is closed again tomorrow and I am trying to be optimistic but I'm NOT looking forward to make up days. At least I can enjoy the snow day I didn't have today...tomorrow.
Pictures later as my camera was dead and is now charging (since i have power back. yaay)

as posted on tumblr

Mar 1, 2009
Yesterday I had to go to the urgency care unit because during David’s benefit concert I got very dizzy and keep falling towards the right when I walked. At one point the room started spinning and I thought I was going to fall over and pass out.

Mom thought I needed to be seen since after I ate some food and drank I still was dizzy when I had sudden jerky movements. Come to find out my Eustachian Tubes are off balance. My nose is inflammed and the left side of my ET has blockage which causes me to be dizzy and off balance. He came me some awesome steroid nose spay and some other medicine.

But I’m not supposed to be doing any jerky movements and should get lots of rest and lots of fluid. This is very similiar to Vertigo but the low end scale of it.