Sunday, March 29, 2009

embracing provision

Last Monday I started to experience some discomfort with my bottom teeth. I knew immediately it had to be wisdom teeth related (which have been embedded in my gums for quite some time now)I got a dentist appointment made for that afternoon for X rays.

Come to find out my bottom 2 wisdom teeth are growing in sideways straight into the roots/bones of my other teeth which has caused an infection which is why I was starting to have some pain there. The dentist wrote me out an antibiotic and referred me to an oral surgeon.

Tuesday I went to my consultative appointment to find out that all 4 teeth would be cut out but that the bottom 2 would be more difficult (and cost more money). One is very close to a nerve and the surgeon was a little concerned as to why I had waited so long to have them out. He proceeded to explain that there was a 1-2% chance for one tooth that i could temporarily loose feeling in my cheek and lip and the other has a 5-7% chance. Granted that's still a low percentage it didn't make me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.

So I have been battling my fears of being put under for surgery and just fears in general as I do not like the dentist, drilling, etc let alone cutting my teeth out and leaving holes.

The date of my surgery will be April 1st at 9:30 am. I have to pay upfront 950.00. Luckily I do have the funds to cover the surgery but it will have to be pulled from wedding savings. Even still that's okay as well because I am getting a good sized tax return back. It was as if God knew the timing for the whole situation and had already put the provisions in place.

But I must be honest that it took me awhile to be thankful and not pout/whine/and complain. It was real easy for me to be upset that my plans were interuppted (for example: spending my spring break recovering instead of all the other plans I had, having to borrow money from the wedding fund). But God really started getting in my business and reminded me that I should be celebrating and praising Him for lining everything up so that it would be taken care of.

I could have not even had the money to cover the surgery. I could have had to taken off days from work and miss pay. I had to see things from His perspective and not my own. Sure it didn't look exactly how I thought it would look, and sure I'm nervous and scared all at the same time. But my God is a mighty God. He has already made a way and provided. He will keep a careful watch over me during my surgery and He will heal my body in a quick recovery. I just have to start believing Him at His word.

So I say all this to say...embrace the provisions God puts in your life. Be thankful that God makes a way and is faithful...even if it's not what you had in mind.


Suzanne said...

Amen to that sister!
I would also encourage you to be grateful because it costs me MORE than that to have all of mine removed (hence why they are STILL in my mouth to this day.)

Jru the Jesus Junkie said...

yeah well insure is supposed to cover the first 1,000 and I fork out the rest. so total is 1950..mine have to come out though..specially with the wedding coming this summer.